oh. passing confinement was such a breeze. army is one phase in life which teaches you to never let things that don't matter put you down for too long. something good will come out of it. and if you refuse to let it hurt you, it won't. watching movie with the rest of the dudes. chat a little with erik. waking up to watch the ever so cute doraemon and taiwan variety show. going out of camp to get great lunch like sashimi duck rice chwee kueh oyster ommelete. taking afternoon naps and talking cock with the other dudes. all that sounds pretty good eh? for a confinement, hell yeah.


me n erik were waiting for ck to come back from changi till like 12 plus. and while talking, i was just mentioning, my goodness, everyone went to bed without waiting for him. haha. it's perfectly alright too. but sometimes, principles are principles. must constantly remind myself to be mindful of people around you. make sure at least we do our part. whatever comes back does not matter. i would like to think these are the things that matter rather than the way we speak and behave on the surface. things closer to who you really are. so stupid and boring principles are, but they matter.



running in to ord, so much things to think about. inside and outside. what to do with the few months break. courses to take. possible scholarships. meeting new people. leaving old people. and all the emotions holding all these together. hmm. it's one of the last times we will have our living habits changed so drastically. it used to be from schools to schools. then from school to ns. and now ns to uni. finally uni to work. every of the shifts brought about so much impact. i wonder how it will be this time. i wonder if scenarios will replay.


i think emo people are so damn pathetic. i want to be totally unaffected like some people. i want to 'don't think so much', in a few friends' words. the ability to convince myself i'm happy and adapt to changes rather well makes me wonder: am i really affected to begin with? haha.


but this time it's going to be different. certain happenings tell me that i must stay focused this time. for it will be the best. for everyone. me and you. ok. maybe me only.


this time, i will only be happy.
truly.
=)