A dedication.

A life goes by
Romantic dreams must die
So I bid mine goodbye and never knew
So close was waiting, waiting here with you
And now forever I know
All that I want is to hold you
So close


wah. so fast and it's time for the standard year end trip. how hectic. thankfully managed to meet frank ck they all for a movie. and during the long wait for them outside maju, i see cs ride by with a bike. that's just great. and cs, thanks so much for the very touching xmas card. thanks for all the xmas cards so far but that is the best till now.


went to meet mum to shop for holiday stuff. how hectic. the mad dash to orchard road. sweeping the whole orchard road for a photo shop to develop photos at 9 plus made me so desperate and down. at that moment it was just so lonely and sad. gosh. like, this familiar world letting me down, when i'm alone and spent.


at that moment when all the bones were stripped bare, i felt like never before i need somebody there. to quote beatles: not just anybody. somebody you know you can always lean on. to feel close to without feeling embarrassed. not hesitate to ask for help. know that you're never alone cause you are on each others' mind all the time. somebody to belong to.


don't feel sorry for that want. ignore all supposed right and wrongs. all moral compasses can be ignored. fuck how people will look at you. this applies to everyone. it's your life. your happiness. hold it tight to you and everything else falls into place. everything pivots around that. 'love pawns all' is so very true.


you will get past everything sad and sorry.
happiness will prevail.
keep looking and move on.
stop the doubts.
and thank you for the laughter and joy.
whatever makes you happy.



remember to share. it matters.



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