ok. quite a lot of things happened. of course there was wee song's birthday. it's not a surprise that people don't put birthdays that high in regard but personally i think it's very important and true, especially when it comes to celebrating others'. and we did have loads of fun on his birthday. a lot of drink. went quite wild after the alcohol. hope he likes the gift. of course also there was the mambo night. and the staying at the cheapo hotel, playing mahjong there, drinking endlessly, and arguing with the hotel over overloading the room, but we won in the end.


and omgoodness. top one karaoke is the all time best one in singapore. they have beautiful surroundings except for the toilet. smoke machine and lazer. free drinks. huge song collection. wow. had great time singing for like 6 plus hours. must go with tw n yy sometime. yupyup.


cohesion on fri was obviously nonsense since we went there before. but oh wells, it was bearable for the company was good. unfortunately a-tech is coming up and that means outfield like mad. weekend gets burned slightly too. oh wells.....


oh. n ozt is gg to spec course. gdness. tht means less of seeing him continues. n bel went off to aust. didn't manage to catch her. omg, i suck. hmmm.


as taiwan draws nearer there is gg to be less time for ppl outside army. but then again, the reverse will be true once ord comes and army people becomes distant. so that draws up an interesting thought the last week, amidst the crazy drinking. clear thoughts were still present? what do i want? hmmm. it's very interesting when you have these few groups of people you associate with and you can dra comparisons. you are a different kind of person with different people. and the last few days i was thinking fun may not be what i want only. there are things you cannot draw away from dealing with people. compassion, intensity, and true raw feelings. the sense of being who you really are and enjoying the true character of others. not just having fun at the moment. and at times, when i can laugh and have fun, sometimes i'm disgusted with some people, and myself. and things become ugly.


and i can't decide what i want.



the amazing thing is the most beautiful thing is the most uncool, boring side of it. and it was not meant to be.