they say there's too little time to hate. i say not. love dearly and hate fiercely. that is a true human being. otherwise just a hypocrite self? and for now i have a real hate. some idiot in camp. goodness. conniving bastard. incompetent and lazy. absolutely cowardly in his actions(even those attempted to hurt others). weak morals if any. probably friendless other than convenient allies of the moment. what a perfect combination. if he has any credible characteristic it would probably to be consistently lousy in all aspects. and it's amazing that people can trust his words against words of another 21 people. so what if you smirk now. using whatever pathetic authority you cling on to so dearly now. just you wait. in a very short while you will face up to what you truly deserve and endured not too long ago before this brief respite. and when the time comes, don't cry or whine. don't say you were not given a chance. try and be brave for once, when payback is due. i emphasize, it's not too far away.


to not be rewarded for your efforts is one thing. to have your basic integrity doybted is another. can't be bothered to ask for rewards. not when respect and pride is attempted to be denied. thankfully we are in this together. if not for friends gained, this would be a disaster. now, it's all ok. just waiting.


haven't been meeting up with alot of close friends. hopefully soon. hope zt gets a vocation he wants. hope ken returns from taiwan safe. hope ww is ok in aust. hope xinyi is doing well in aust. hope yy likes her new house. hope ttw choses a course that is suitable. hope xx survives in archi. hope cs is enjoyin his new role as pc. hope derek gets a good new vocation. hope i make a right choice with uni. many thing else. and if blogging is narcisstic, hope this releases all my hate and not deter me from who i am.


try not to be such a snappy tounge. saying too much always.