Last weekend was just great. So much so, there was a fear that this weekend will just splat in my face. But it didn't. Of course not.


Been having alot of off days this two weeks. Hope it continues=) One of my dear buddy zy's birthday coming soon. Thus we had a good lunch at vienthai. Oh...tom yum love affair renewed.


Keegan is flying off soon. Must meet up before he flies off to taiwan. Vanessa too! On the same day: what coincidence. Like today, met jingling at mrt, then waved at tianxi frm bus and ignored arson from bus home. Haha! There has been this renewed vigour to hold on to ties these few weeks. I'm afraid of losing people around me always. But sometimes, like life now, when time seems so focused on army life only, you feel you are letting other facets of life slip away. Like people in bmt, schooling years, and others. Hmmm. But ihave faith. I hope.


Derek got dengue! Oh no. Hope he gets well. And to think i thought i was really sick the last week. Blah, sometimes even when we think we care alot about others, we tend to get lost in our own sorrow and pain that we ignore others'. Point learnt.


A friend seems to be avoiding me. Ok. It was expressed in 'black and white' in fact. Sadly, sometimes things take priority ahead of friendship. I think it's essential to look back and give it a chance. And see what was most important in a relationship. And when you see what made it worthwhile, maybe you are willing to forgive the missing? It would be a regret to lose a good friend.


I hope i can carry my joy forward. And even pay it forward. It seems like this momentum is building again. Just that the same drag still there. And it's bothersome. I must say, it is destroying who i should be. But again, what is who i should be? Ah, let it be.