For now, 5 km a day seems the norm. Gosh. To think signals was suppose to be slack. Haha. I remember telling frank not to worry in our signals institute days when we got posted to 6SIR. It might be an 8 to 5 vocation. Got that wrong. I also told him, surely they have nothing for us to do at a combat unit like that. Got that wrong as well. Then i persisted: Perhaps, it being a Protection of key installation unit would be very slack on the whole. Extremely wrong as well. But i'm not so sure i'm regretting all that wrong. I am quite liking the training, amazingly. Not so amazingly actually. There were those days in np prime mode where training like that was also very fun. Hmm. but then again, no doubt i'm fitter now, my running time then is actually better than now. It's all about the motivation factor.


There is actually alot of time to rest in my new unit, to prepare for the next event of the day. Like after morning physical, the rest period while waiting for SOC, there would be a blank of time there. And besides reading books, listening to music, watching pro evoluation gaming on psp, i think alot. And similar events flash through. The same events over and over again. Like: nco training course during np days. Run in to a levels in acjc. Debate final in newtown speaking first time to cs n kez in such a bad manner. zzz. And some other more personal moments with various people.



And so much of our time is spent on the past. Hopefully it will help us stand stronger. Believe more firmly. And do what we know we want to do. Regardless what people say. What they say. Ignore even what you seem to be saying to yourself.


Do everything it takes to be man. And anymore will make you less.
Who cares if you are somebody else's priority or not? Don't even let it bother you. Why worry that it's not what makes you the happiest you can be? Who said life was such?


The best stories are never sugar coated. They are real. They are you. No more and no less. They never end the way everyone want it to end. They end the way the story ends. So maybe we should read stories and not be judges of whether that's the way it should be. Writing our story, maybe we can allow ourselves more courage to just let it be. I know it hurts sometimes. But the chapter can be so beautiful.