I've got to say the new camp was totally different from what i expected. It was like a cultural shock going there from SI. It is a bit like bmt in some ways. Maybe less of the regimentation. The physical part quite a shock to the system to us air con soldiers.

Ok, that kind of devalues my next point which is that such a deployment makes no sense. Ok, in this age of no acceptance of criticism when it comes to certain bodies, that is enough. But when time comes, every man in singapore is only put clearer in the picture of what really is the best is yet to be. It is so frustrating sometimes, when there are so many issues you want to just let rip about. Like cpf, the unsw fiasco, the Lima Hotel Yankee incident, structure of the Sandy Ass Farts. But no, we keep silent. When there is no choice, even when the choice available is good, there will be a point where progress is limited. Let's hope degration won't set in?


Maybe at this new unit there will be less time to see people i would like to see. Maybe more, who knows? For one, there is the taiwan excercise next year. So that gives an idea of which would be the more likely. That brings into issues of priorities again. I think ns is great that is allows us to know new people. But also make you realise sometimes it's not just time that is the crucial factor. Also, it just constantly refreshes your idea of priorities cause every available chance back at civilisation you basically need to make choices. And i just decided, today, that priorities are actually wrong, unlike the mentality i had for the last few years. With priority, sometimes you just become so unfair to some people and also your plans sometimes are just back ups for something else that can't happen or has yet to happen. That is just wrong and unfair. But whatever makes you happy should be what you choose? Happy?


Also, i think i see, that it's not about how much time spent, sometimes. Sets of values and character not appealing sometimes just repels the possibility of people becoming close, and ns has taught me well about that. And it's so fake.


I miss people who make me feel comfortable. Like we agreed, me kez des n cs, people you are really close with, you can just sit there and do nothing yet not feel uncomfortable with. There is just no objective. The purpose driven, gratification seeking life in ns just highlights that fact. It's quite sad actually.



Too precious to spoil.