Ok. The next two weeks is going to be blowing past at lightning pace la. Goodness. A million appointments and another million potential appointments. Then there is that never ending balancing of which belonging to which. Like, what are your priorities? I think such things, usually i'm very clear minded. Very focused on what i give utter way to. Like a certain someone said, when it comes to such stuff, i can be very stupid. True true.


I think it's very crucial, before getting into army, and that endless vocation on a little island called tekong, to set my mind right on certain things. And round up certain issues definetly, for the moment at least. People too. That has been on the front of my thoughts rather than admission matters. Before disappearing indefinetly into the ns jungles, probably having a peace of my mind is a must on the kitlist. Goodness, that is impossible! Sometimes, certain things nag at you, and the ball is really not in your court! So you wait. Like i always do. But now, time is running out.


I have this feeling that after ns alot of things will change for me. Cs des and me were talkin about changes just the other day. Like with so many things so drastic now, what will happen? I am very sure big changes await in this 2 years, or just the 2 mths plus bmt itself. How it comes about i do not know. It could be somehow, gazing at the tekong nightsky, i am willing to close the chapters, and just move on, forsaking everything. It could be others changing inducing change in me. It could be seeing the old issues in new light and well walk the same way, with new characters. Whatever it is, i'm sure it's going to be dramatic. Seriously. I have friends telling me, given my np record i sure kena ocs or smthing.( Don't be stupid.Does it really matter? I hope not) Then again, some say ippt if you do ur thang, thts another step towards ocs glory. For me, please, i just want a simple life. Don't put me anywhere near those nonsensical self satisfying ego boosting vocations that make people imagine they did not waste the two years but have became great leaders of our time. Preparing for combat with ferocious potential enemies like the errrrrrrrrr....wild boars of tekong? Leave those to people who wayang and chiong like their life depended on their ns performance in a bid to impress their gf, family, get scholarships, go into uni courses they like or get a free sword. Cause it ain't gonna impress me. So i reinstate, keep me away!!!! Best best best, is give me some slack job although i do ok in bmt, cause i don't want to slack yet don't want to chiong. Yes.


So if the changes really do come, i shall look back at this post and what was before it. Then reflect if they were good. And if i do leave people behind, was i right to. And will my new life satisfy me. New mentality? Character? But i'm bracing myself. Cause it's going to happen. And i have a feeling this 2 weeks is going to push me in a direction of whatever changes occur soon. I'm sure some people will change. Mark my words.