Ok. Passed through unscathed. Results was unbelievably ok. But somewhere, always, somehow, i expected it coming. Like the song goes," so it is, like you said it should be, that life goes easy on me". Just a lucky idiot. And i deserve the curses sent my way for getting these undeserved results?


But the whole process was not one filled with happiness but just relieve. The joy was reserved for celebrating how some friends really did well. Above their expectations, and pushing themselves to their best. Hope it pushes them in that direction in life. Making wise decisions as well. Really happy for them.


For those who didnt do well, or up to their own expectations, i guess we all go on. Some agony felt for some really sad results, unbelievably undeserved for those people. Some exasperation at how my predictions for some turned out right, in a wrong way. I guess we all learn. And in every bleak situation, opportunities in other directions surface. Take them.


To those people who sent a total of 195 messages within one half days, sending blessings and wishes, i thank you all. And the denying of sleep through the night and constant reminder of the results ahead, was immensely comforting. Haha. Narh, seriously, very humbled by the concern.


Maybe at such a crossroad, making immense decisions, maybe more momentuous than those made two years ago, we all should stop and think. Think of the past decisions. And how we made them. How we could have went in another direction. How those who really mattered made theirs. And whether it is leading them down the path they want. Then we make our own. Now.



I guess, this is all in passing. The apparent good results. The congratulations. All count for nothing. It's not on hindsight nor am i saying what the chinese call"feng liang hua". In the first place this is not champagne material to begin with. But all that behind, what matters, is a consolidation, that we have destiny in our own hands. The world lays before us, like an oyster, filled with immense delight, waiting to be opened. But it stays ugly, if we lack the courage to go for the best, and settle for the good. The best is yet to be. And i mean it in every sense of the phrase. More for life, than for academics. Well, for one, i see a picture of us, rather than a canvass, masterpiece, of just me. That's all that matters. Not the money.