Take a little piece of my heart

2010-01-07T22:57:00.002+08:00

tennis was fun. random lazin about with fatboy sx n glen was cool too. boon tong kee was good for the first time ever. maybe i didn't have sg food for too long.

与世隔绝数天，却没能修成正果。
你呢？

2010-01-07T13:20:00.001+08:00

tennis. shiok. singapore's too hot man. needs to fly back to hk. nwwww.

如可分身飾演自己
會將心中的溫柔獻出給你

2010-01-07T00:24:00.002+08:00

finally back in singapore. so much things to catch up on.

macau and china was same same. hong kong was spectacular as usual. lan kwai fong drinks pawns all.

told myself this overseas trip is the deadline.

seeking cure through isolation.
detached from the world for 6 days and still i find myself standing here.
nirvana awaits. maybe hell.

2009-12-31T16:58:00.002+08:00

fancy words are really useless. declarations on facebooks by a million and one person on facebook. and what good does it do? will he/she swoon over your devotedness? can it change the way people feel?

we are always trapped in our own cocoons of feelings. we imagine a future for ourselves and the person we like and that precious little world is what matters ultimately. everything else are mere distractions.

one year on and i still remember the foolish things i said and did last year. how some foolish emotions made me give up some feelings in pursuit of others. convinced myself it was what i wanted. making someone else happy. even if i knew it would probably only make me miserable.

one year on i had the chance to look at the whole episode. and surely it's time to move on to a new phase. 2010 should be a good year. one last excuse to be emo this overseas trip. moonlight express to hong kong.

and the joke of this muse is you probably have them too. just that you muse about someone while i muse about you. the vicious cycle. till we meet.

2009-12-31T02:23:00.002+08:00

shopping for overseas stuff is shiok since it's endless spending. hundred of dollars get into taka coffers and it gives you the ultimate retail. and mum pays. so win. high tea rocks too. tired legs and fat belly sucks. needs to get fit.

having super mood swing due to impending overseas trip. omg, it's new year's eve already.

and this year's nyeve is ultimate cui diao i bet. i need to get someone dearest to me by my side now to drink and chill with me now. in marina bay view apartment, by the infinity pool. ok. not happening in a while. another 5 years perhaps.

when i'm no longer having an issue with intimacy anymore. 500 days of summer made me realise i am sick.

2009-12-29T22:39:00.002+08:00

outing wit hdan and fatboy. random and lousy shopping excursion, lunch at marina and buy spicy drumlets n sushi back to fatboy's place. nine was damn random movie. gym was anyhow. swim was nice. dinner was spicy. wrestler was fail. slacking is king. i like slacking. but going home is a whore.

shopping tmr for cold weather clothes tmr. that is nice since mother financed. but i'm not enthu about going overseas. first i hate taking plane. second i hate the hassle. third i want to slack in singapore with friends and family. and most importantly, nothing's occupying my heart this winter and so it's nothing to emo about during those ferry rides or plane rides. gg.

need alot of movies in my mac to bring overseas. rarrrr.

but i came to believe that if i watched closely, and desired, i might change the lives of those i loved on earth.

2009-12-29T02:09:00.002+08:00

legs hanging, breath held. in awkwardness we made promises we never could keep. and in a moment, the future became a chase for the same ecstasy and fulfillment. everything went back to that instant. everyday became a comparison, that could never match up.

and still i wait for that moment to be relegated to become a comparison. an affirmation instead of just passion itself.

but you know i lie. all the time.

a wonderful novel gives us this wonderful narrative.

if i told the world, i'll never say enough.
cause it was not said to you.

2009-12-26T22:24:00.002+08:00

erik's back. so cool. lol. went to eat ng ah sio ba kut teh but it's renovating. keppel road one ok ok la. and then off to old airport road to eat. nice. pool at marina was lame. lol. but oh wells, chit chat on the side was fun. haha. ws sx frank erik ky me jus random chats.

and off to durty nelly's for drinks, me erik and ky. nicest part. haha.

and randomly me and ky went to national library to read books. i have to say the view is inspiring for aspiring pub owners like me. haha. and bishamon ramen is damn good. sake is fuck. haha.

all in all a nice boxing day. some friends really can pick back up easily. some ah, god knows what i was thinking.

2009-12-26T01:43:00.003+08:00

xmas this year is really weird. it's quite a blur. all the emotions and thoughts just wander randomly. happy & emo thoughts existing happily together. maybe this is emo nirvana...zen?

i don't even have a wish this xmas. gosh, what have i done?

every year this period is emo. especially if it's overseas. maybe on 1st jan when i'm in hk there will be more insight on what's happening. last year's issues seem so far away now. it's only the 21st xmas and i'm feeling like there's nothing more already to be had.

resorting to alcohol highs and self induced enthusiasm is absolutely shameful. there is not even enough desire in me. in a way, this is ED. not erectile dysfuntion. rather emotional dysfunction.

then you look at me.
no, please don't.
bye bye bicentennial Man.

2009-12-25T01:37:00.002+08:00

shopping with ozt gets me another pair of jeans. watched a farking cui movie bodyguards and assasins. cui cui cui. quiznos was not bad but slightly weird conceptually.

baking at ws's place. then lunched at jurong point. and xmas eve party at my house with the khakis. good jolly fun. moderate drinks. i really must quit drinking before liver cnacer strikes. gosh.

xmas celeb tmr with family. and then boxing day with the maju peeps welcoming erik back home!!!=)

what a great end to the week.

so it is, like you said it would be.
life goes easy on me.
most of the time.

but you strip me of it's beauty.
like it should be.

2009-12-23T11:53:00.002+08:00

yesterday was a good day cause i had fantastic fishball noodles and char siew duck rice with ws after baking session. also i didn't bomb for a too slack sem although q sad some friends bomb like dog. oh wells. work harder next sem.

today will be a happy day cause shopping and watching movie with ozt. in fact i think i'm gg to be late!!!!

tmr will be a crazy happy day cause there is xmas eve party! hurrah!

2009-12-22T01:27:00.003+08:00

waking up early these few days. funky. baking baking baking. cool. today after delivering to my cousin at cbd area, ws and i decides to go shopping and food hunt at ion. i have to say lunch was certainly one of the more satisfying ones i ever had in town. bon bon soy garlic crispy wings, gyoza, spicy internal organs, pawn ass tako gindacho, each a cup. wa lao. zai.

and i'm quite happy with my uniqlo purchases. spending money is madness.

and night outing with the nus peeps and one random ntu girl jc went on from 9 till 1 plus. wtf. lol. discussion about japan trip became drinking games with kissing and transfers of drinks mouth to mouth. wtf. i have to say we are mad.

the week ahead is a blockbuster. today, later in the morning is baking plus results=) then wednesday will be movie plus shopping. thursday xmas eve dinner party with the khakis. friday family xmas dinner. saturday maju peeps outing with the long amiss erik. wow. craziness happiness.

hope tmr will be a good day. all my friends & i please get good results. yipee ya ya.

2009-12-18T23:04:00.001+08:00

after one whole day of relaxin at home, off to stagmont area to see sx and shaunna perform. the service reminded me of acjc days. reminded me of super emo song. not bad. quite fun. dinner at lot 1.

made two promises to myself today. no alcohol for 1 month. and not to give flying fuck about fucked up ppl anymore.

yea. uniqlo plus assasins tmr. nice.

2009-12-18T16:47:00.002+08:00

it's really alright to give excuses. i'm also ready to accept them.

just don't let me know that they are excuses. cause i was willing to believe them?!

fuckin stupid.

your choice.

2009-12-18T01:14:00.001+08:00

slacked at home today.

then delivered michelle's tart.

then random shopping in city hall. hmv session.

avatar pawns. the effects are marvellous. it's mindblowingly fresh perspective.

and finally good ol' drinks at durty nelly's. need to start pub on my own.

2009-12-16T22:39:00.002+08:00

i'm tired from a whole day of doing stuff. 4 hrs sleep and then interview with yang meh meh at 9am. after that rush to queensway for printing flyers. and right after that rush to meet nus peeps for jap trip discussion.

then chiong down to ws house for baking=)

in between all these, i took the time to go buy the tickets for avatar. must be 3D since it's bloody avatar. scared no seats.

but why should i bother? lol. weird perspective. sometimes we only see our own priorities, and do not see how sometimes people go out of their way.

that's why cs was pissed off with me yesterday. because i only saw my side of the issue. how i feel that being with another friend at that time was more important. i feel that it's justified. maybe it is. but it's still not considering other ppl's feeling enough.

switching back to today. maybe i feel that it's not justified for others to question especially when i took the effort to do that extra bit. to offer more than i should and often, i feel i treasure some relationships with some people more. way more than they do at least. and that is the truth.

but my experience yesterday has taught me to not be angry. or even disappointed too much by such incidences. maybe valid reasons justify people's actions and thoughts. and priorities especially make people act differently. values too.

because we're always prone to ignore others' goodwill and magnify their faults. doing the reverse for ourselves. that's true for me. and you.

and at this moment i choose to remind myself of that=) oh wells.

2009-12-15T17:44:00.003+08:00

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2009-12-15T00:58:00.002+08:00

totally into the pub idea. need $.

cbd boys was not really successful but it was definetly a good experience. and now a new venture with ws. this biz model makes much more sense. and wed lunch meeting with the nus peeps. woohoo. lots of stuff gg on. so exciting.

let's go!!

i need to put away the distractions. in my head.

And you bother me
You posess me
You're there again
Ahead of me
And I won't let go
I won't let go

You're inside my head
Inside my head

another of those see saw phase which keeps me thinking about impossibilities. but then again, i've got many things to keep my mind occupied. rarrrrr!

2009-12-13T01:24:00.002+08:00

broke like a dog. 200 dow nthe drain. shop for xx gift. lunch buffet at lao beijing with xx n poof. random shopping with the two dumb dumb girls.

feng yun with the dudes. wtf. pang brothers should go eat ten years of shit. but nonetheless it was fun. timbre at old school was damn fun. despite lousy music thanks to lousy taste crowd. lol. only one nice song and we choose it. win. the fark sl part was damn funny though.

all in all. as ky says: good time, good night. =)

2009-12-11T01:46:00.002+08:00

swim swim swim. sun tan. shiok.

sat proves to be a spectacular day. meetin poof and xx for afternoon tea. then movie with some of the dudes and off to mount sophia for drinks!=)))

and for now. i shall minimize spending till sat comes along. i need to be rich. like damn rich. now.

2009-12-10T00:30:00.002+08:00

was just thinking that would be a nice last post to the blog. like forever. but narh.

haircut. good lunch. then dinner with kez and cs. and then cs and me couldnt control and ended up buying shoes. gg. lol. super broke.

nvm. feel shiok. alcoshopaholic.

2009-12-08T19:52:00.002+08:00

The Beatles - In my Life

There are places I'll remember
All my life though some have changed
Some forever not for better
Some have gone and some remain
All these places have their moments
With lovers and friends I still can recall
Some are dead and some are living
In my life I've loved them all

But of all these friends and lovers
There is no one compares with you
And these memories lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more

Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more
In my life I love you more

how relevant & meaningful these lyrics are( even to an asian kid like me) after so many years shows how great these guys really are.
strawberry fields forever.

2009-12-08T17:51:00.000+08:00

谁的爱放在假日的市场,

讨价还价拍卖着它的重量.

2009-12-08T13:46:00.003+08:00

nice chill out day to myself today. just completed 20 laps. must get damn fit before tailoring.

should be quite busy the rest of the week. so relac day today is perfect.

hk bkk japan. ftw. hope this will stay as planned for the coming months.

i found out i'm more of a shopaholic than alcoholic. die. very high maintenance addictions.

2009-12-07T18:21:00.003+08:00

hiking trip today was epic. fail. haha. fat boy overslept! in the end adjourn to his place to play rock band beatles. rocks!... beatles forever. it was just like singing beatles ktv but anyhow. haha. finally a way to like rock band.

and then anyhow slack around. slacking rocks.

i look forward to a fulfilling week ahead=)